Last week was a bad one for me. I couldn't seem to just be happy with me. I couldn't seem to see the GOOD things I was doing in life, I could only see my failures. I think a lot of this had to do with pregnancy hormones (sometimes they really just get me down), but it was getting ridiculous. I had absolutely zero motivation to do ANYTHING because I figured I was a failure anyway. I didn't care to put much effort into getting ready because I didn't think I was gonna look even halfway decent anyway.
But this morning, I woke up renewed. I realized that the only way I was going to see my strengths and to realize the good things I am doing was to TRY.
So I woke up at 7:35 AM. I only pressed snooze like once. Wooo! I put on basketball shorts and a tank and walked downstairs. I grabbed my i-pod, stretched, and worked out. I felt rejuvenated. Then I did the dishes, made my husband a yummy and healthy lunch, and settled down to a whole wheat English muffin with jam for breakfast. Then, I went upstairs and got ready. When I looked in the mirror, I told myself I was beautiful, despite what I actually believed (and the three new zits that decided to take residence on my chin...) I read my scriptures, straightened my bedroom, started the laundry, and chose that today would be different.
You want to know what I learned?
The way we feel about ourselves depends more upon OURSELVES than on anyone or anything else.
Am I failing at a lot of things? Yes, of course.
I wish that I could sew.
I wish that my house was more organized than it is.
I wish that I could fit everything into a day that I plan to.
I wish that I was more service oriented.
I wish that I knew more about the gospel than I do.
I wish that I had a food supply.
I wish that I did a better job of taking care of my husband.
I wish I ate healthier.
I wish I could prioritize more efficiently.
But that doesn't mean I'm failing at everything.
I have a creative mind that can make old things fun and new.
I'm good at making lists.
I always get the important things done first in my day.
I find it easy to inwardly empathize with others.
I read my scriptures every day and learn as much as I can.
My husband always has food to eat in our house.
My puppy gets lots of baths, treats, and love.
My son gets nutrition and love.
I know how to make some of my husband's favorite meals.
And, perhaps most importantly, my husband knows that I love him.
So no, I'm not in any way perfect. But I've learned that I don't have to be. I can just be me, striving to become my personal best but knowing that I'll never be able to do EVERYTHING.
And that's the way life is supposed to be.
But this morning, I woke up renewed. I realized that the only way I was going to see my strengths and to realize the good things I am doing was to TRY.
So I woke up at 7:35 AM. I only pressed snooze like once. Wooo! I put on basketball shorts and a tank and walked downstairs. I grabbed my i-pod, stretched, and worked out. I felt rejuvenated. Then I did the dishes, made my husband a yummy and healthy lunch, and settled down to a whole wheat English muffin with jam for breakfast. Then, I went upstairs and got ready. When I looked in the mirror, I told myself I was beautiful, despite what I actually believed (and the three new zits that decided to take residence on my chin...) I read my scriptures, straightened my bedroom, started the laundry, and chose that today would be different.
You want to know what I learned?
The way we feel about ourselves depends more upon OURSELVES than on anyone or anything else.
Am I failing at a lot of things? Yes, of course.
I wish that I could sew.
I wish that my house was more organized than it is.
I wish that I could fit everything into a day that I plan to.
I wish that I was more service oriented.
I wish that I knew more about the gospel than I do.
I wish that I had a food supply.
I wish that I did a better job of taking care of my husband.
I wish I ate healthier.
I wish I could prioritize more efficiently.
But that doesn't mean I'm failing at everything.
I have a creative mind that can make old things fun and new.
I'm good at making lists.
I always get the important things done first in my day.
I find it easy to inwardly empathize with others.
I read my scriptures every day and learn as much as I can.
My husband always has food to eat in our house.
My puppy gets lots of baths, treats, and love.
My son gets nutrition and love.
I know how to make some of my husband's favorite meals.
And, perhaps most importantly, my husband knows that I love him.
So no, I'm not in any way perfect. But I've learned that I don't have to be. I can just be me, striving to become my personal best but knowing that I'll never be able to do EVERYTHING.
And that's the way life is supposed to be.
ohh my word!!! my week went like that too!! but, i don't have a pregnancy to cause it! you are jsut so great i love your posts, every single one!!
ReplyDeletetrust me your failure list matches mine! Just try and enjoy the ride! your hair is adorable in that pic!
ReplyDeleteI find that it is so easy to pick out all the things I'm not doing... and not focus enough on the good things that I am! It's good to know I'm not alone. You are right, we just have to TRY! :) Totally motivating. Thanks girl!
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I can feel through your blog that you are one heck of a girl... I KNOW this- so I hope you can remember that when you feel down. Don't let the fact that you got down get you down though- sometimes we have to get low to reach new heights... it's not bad when ultimately you come out stronger and like you said anew. This post makes me happy and also makes me want to do better at loving myself, too.
ReplyDeleteTOo cute lady, I love these post.
ReplyDeleteI hate to point out a weakness on this post but I must remind you...
ReplyDelete**Sometimes you are just too hard on yourself and place too many expectations on yourself!!!!
Brit, you are absolutely AMAZING girl. You always have been and you are an inspiration and example to myself and so many others. Thank you for that!!
By the way... Zits will go away, but your good works will grow and last forever!
LoVeS! <3
This was awesome-you are awesome! You're right, we aren't supposed to be able to everything all the time. Otherwise, there would be no room for growth, or no motivation to do better. Just remember you are always doing YOUR best. It can't be compared to anyone else because their best is going to be completely different. Have a great rest of the week!
ReplyDeleteBrit! My goodness,if you feel like a failure, then girl I am dddddirt! You are theeee most amazing person, and so valiant. Your post spoke to me baby!! You are so insightful and I thank you for that!
ReplyDeleteAww Britney, I'm sorry you had one of those weeks!
ReplyDelete1) You are very, very beautiful. Inside and out.
2) No, there is NEVER enough time in a day- sometimes we need tomorrow to finish what we started today.
3)You are so right- the way we feel about ourselves is the biggest determiner of how happy we are. So many don't know this.
4) If you want a good, cheaper- than- elsewhere- place to buy a year's supply, check out American Discount Foods on Extension & Broadway. I used to work there and my uncle is one of the owners- they have the really big bags of rice and beans for pretty cheap, along with the huge #10 cans of stuff. :)
I love this post! I was just scrollin down and blog stalkin ya because I haven't done that in a while :) And, well, this just really impressed me. We all have those bad days and weeks and its hard to stay on the bright side sometimes. We're not perfect for a reason, so that we can learn and grow in this life to become the best people we can be! Thanks for the inspiration and encouragement Brit. Love ya girl!
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